So yeah, I realize that’s pretty much my goal in a nutshell. I want to be the old man at gaming conventions thats so old, he looks out of place until you realize he’s gaming with his kid. I want to have the time and money to sit around the house and do the hobbies that I never have the time or money to do now. Maybe I should push the writing thing more so I can make a crappy career out of it and then work from home. I can paint minis to inspire myself and write game worlds for freelance work. Maybe I have goals and dreams afterall. I always look at people here at the University with career goals and I think, I don’t have any of those. I don’t want to be defined by my job, I just want to work enough to make my free time worth it. But then maybe I just haven’t found the right career. Too bad the things that are most interesting to me are so flaky financially: writing, film production, photography.

I’m not unhappy, I just think I could be happier. But then again, I firmly believe that happieness need not come from your surroundings and standings, but more how you precieve and deal with them. Now if only Heather could see things the same way.