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In the Tree Top…

…in which I talk about babies and eyes (but not writing because I ran out of time to finish my entry).

So last night was my first real solo attempt at putting Ansel to bed. Every night before this has been either a tag team effort or a solo effort on Heather’s part. Now this isn’t that big of an injustice, as until recently, we only really put Ansel to bed by either dropping him in his swing and letting him rock the night away, or by Heather nursing him to sleep in bed beside her (a task I am gender challenged to perform). But lately we’ve been trying to change some of his sleep habits and as a result, I decided to use the night alone with him to really work on some bedtime practices. I’ve found that when we are both tending to him, we are less able to just leave him to cry, we end up feeling bad both for him and for each other, so he gets rescued much faster. I figured with Heather out of the house, I could “man up” and just let him cry a bit. Turns out, I’m almost as much a sucker as Heather is.

We fed him, changed him and Heather went on her way to the grocery store. It was about his bedtime and he was looking mighty drowsy if I may say so, so I set about putting him to bed in his play yard. I laid him down and started reading to him one of his two most often read books, “Harry the Dirty Dog” by Gene Zion, illustrated by Margaret Bloy Graham. Well, about two pages in, he decided that my voice and Gene’s story were just not entertaining enough to simply lay on his back and be calm, and thus the crying began. After I finished the story, I tried a bit more to console him and then decided I might allow him to nurse himself to sleep so long as he stays on his back in his play yard. So I made up a quick 2oz bottle, all the while juggling him and fighting off the pesterful cat who was impatiently awaiting his dinner. Once I got the bottle made up and the baby back in his play yard, I teased him with the bottle until he realized it was, in fact, not a finger or a pacifier and he sucked on that thing like it was an oxygen hose and he was at the bottom of the Atlantic. He drank down those 2oz in record time and as the last of it trickled away, I stood ready with a pacifier to quickly take the place of the bottle nipple. That ended up being a not so smart idea. He’s more savvy to the pacifier than one might think for being only five months old and he was immediately displeased.

Realizing at this point that he was genuinely hungry, I picked him up and we went back into the kitchen, fought the cat, juggled bottles and babies and poured up a second 2oz bottle. Dropped the baby back in the play yard and stuck the bottle in his mouth. This time he actually started slowing after the first ounce, so I grabbed his stuffed elephant and wrapped his arms around it. As he finished the bottle, he kind of just let go of it and drifted off. I thought I was in nirvana! He was asleep in his dreaded play yard, hugging his elephant, snoring away to the music we put together for him. I was just about to plop down on the couch and get some serious reading done when Heather texted from the grocery store, reminding me that I was to be making dinner that night.

Twenty minutes into dinner, after having already run out of onions, brown sugar, and cooking oil; the baby awakened with, at first, grumpy little grunts, and then screams of loss and abandon. I hadn’t even gotten dinner into the oven yet. I ran in to try and comfort him, but if there’s anything Heather and I have learned over the last five months, its that our baby cannot be comforted without being picked up, and that any amount of comfort he gains from being picked up, is immediately shattered upon being put back down. Regardless, I talked to him a bit, patted him on the back, kissed him and whispered sweet words of comfort into his ear, and then ran back into the kitchen to finish getting dinner into the oven whilst he screamed in the next room. Heather finally came home while I was ass over elbows, head down in the play yard, my lips to his ears, trying everything I could to sooth him without picking him up. My evening did not, necessarily go downhill from that point, but it certainly never picked up.


All that aside, I finally got a chance to get to the optometrist today to get my prescription checked against the old good prescription and the transient bad glasses. Turns out wearing the wrong prescription for a year has been a bad thing and my eyes have gotten worse as a result. I explained the now somewhat comical situation to him and he went ahead and did the exam. Turns out that I now need glasses that are a bit stronger than what was prescribed to me last time, though they are weaker than the glasses I’ve been wearing for the last year. So damage has been done, but its not as severe as it could be. Heck it could probably be chalked up age wearing on my eyes. Either way, I took the prescription back over to Eyemaster and will be getting yet another pair of lenses for my glasses (for those keeping track, this is the third left lens and the fourth right lens). Here’s hoping that I’ll finally be able to see for an entire day with them.


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POTD2 #036


POTD2 #036
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this was going to be a photo of my dinner, but I was too hungry and ate too fast.

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Next Gen Gaming, Patch 2.0…

…in which I talk money and game systems.

So last night, I finally decided to say “Fuck It” and go out and buy an Xbox 360 Elite. Initially I went to Best Buy to find one, but had no luck. In my meandering around town to locate one (which both WalMart and Target had the Elites in stock), I came upon a solution I’m happy with. I’m going to procrastinate. The money I have from the tax return would pretty much pay for an Xbox 360 Elite flat, which would leave me with an Xbox and no games or Xbox Live Account or anything. However, if I put the money in my account and just feel at ease to buy the books I want to read this year, and maybe some DVDs here and there, when I get the money for photographing the wedding at the end of March, then I’ll be able to buy an Xbox 360 Elite with the wedding money, and probably (hopefully) still have some of my tax return money left over for a game or two. Additionally, that gives Microsoft another month to announce the release of a Blu-Ray addon or a full blown Blu-Ray Elite. For the time being, I’m getting myself some Bluetooth headphones to listen to music on my cell phone.


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User: All my email keeps going into the trash.

Me: Well, I see here that you’ve made a filter sends all your mail to the trash.

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POTD2 #035


POTD2 #035
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Getting ready for bed

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POTD2 #034


POTD2 #034
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sleeping in the car, peaceful and snoring.

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POTD2 #033


POTD2 #033
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The only picture I took all day long.

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POTD2 #032


POTD2 #032
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Home made burgers, Heather’s was straightforward, but mine had fetta cheese rolled in the ground beef. Served with garlic fried, a pickle spear, and the new Shiner Black.

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Finding My Voice…

…in which I talk about blogging, writing, and allowing myself to make misteaks.

So I’ve got a new website, which currently has nothing on it, and a new blog, upon which I haven’t fully decided what I’m going to write. Way back when, when I started my LiveJournal, I was a pretty avid blogger, but I can’t say that there was that much introspection on those early posts. Most just served to keep people up to date on what I was doing. While I see the value in that, I’m not sure that’s the kind of blog I really want to have. Internet fame shouldn’t mean anything to me, but I do have a deep seated need for recognition and if writing something on the internet to get people to see it serves that purpose, then so be it. My problem is that I’m not exactly sure what I’m going to write. I know what I don’t want to write however, and its a struggle to write around that.


I don’t want a blog that’s all ranting and bemoaning. I don’t want a blog that tries to draw pity or illicit any kind of consolation. I don’t want to fill my blog with memes, I’ll leave those to LiveJournal. I don’t want my blog to be just endless babble with no thought or entertainment value. This is not to say that every entry should make the reader take pause and think about their lives or anything, but I at least want to try to do some thinking on my own as I write these entries. I want to feel like I’m growing as a person as I type up these entries of self discovery.


Part of what keeps me from writing is that I’m afraid of bad writing. That’s a fair fear, but it takes bad writing to create good writing. The same is true of all art, and its something I have a hard time with. It’s one of the things that I struggle with regularly in my photography and why I’m afraid to draw. I don’t want to do anything badly, so I don’t do anything at all. We learn to do things by making mistakes and doing things wrong, but I’ve grown up to be such an anal retentive perfectionist, it goes against my core nature to allow myself to screw things up. To that end, the book “Bird By Bird” has been suggested to me and I plan to read it next (I’d be reading it now, but it was hiding in my studio and I’d forgotten about it completely). I need to break out of this armor of perfection and allow myself to screw up more. So prepare yourself for a barrage of badly thought out, poorly constructed blogging entries as I attempt to find my voice and in as much, find my self, again.


Just as a point of clarity, I will be using this blog as a place to really focus on myself and try to get some real thinking and writing done. My LiveJournal will be a comprehensive blog, containing not only crossposted entries from here, but also including the silly memes, quizzes, photos, and other random rants and whines that I don’t wish to share here.


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POTD2 #031


POTD2 #031
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He’s so excited, he can’t hardly wait for the next bite!